MY FRESHMAN YEAR!

I haven't written in a long time. Almost all of my freshman year has gone by, with new people and old people and just a lot. So I'm going to try to sum it up. In October I played tennis. I started going out with Jim, in which I broke up with because I just didn't have feelings for him anymore. Then he got a new girlfriend. Then somehow we ended up going out again, him dumping his girlfriend for me which I didn't approve of. This, him breaking up with his girlfriend and going out with me, happened in the winter. Then soccer season started. That's about when he broke up with me to go back out with the girl he broke up with to date me. It was one huge shit hole of a time and I was really depressed. I took up cutting and I really regret doing it. I also would NOT suggest it to anyone who is having trouble. If you need someone to talk to, or somewhere to let things out, write in a notebook. Or go see a therapist. They really do help in getting things out. As for cutting, I no longer do it thanks to friends getting me through hard times in my life.

Anywho, I met a new guy. He helped me through so much. Naturally, I kinda had a thing for him. But I pushed it aside. I didn't want to ruin our friendship. NOT TO MENTION HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND. Ugh. That's really the reason, though. Because he has a girlfriend. So all I can do is hope he reaches to me if him and his girlfriend break up. But I doubt that'll happen. After all, they've been dating for seven months or so now.

Other things that happened throughout the year are I became best friends with this girl. Her name is Joselyn, but I call her Jos. She's really fun and crazy and I just love her to death. We've had so many crazy memories together. I'm really glad I became friends with her. Now she's moving. It sucks, but it's close enough to visit often. So I suppose that's alright. Another thing that happened was I also became friends with another kid named Jake. He's really cool. But just a friend I can assure you that.

So that was the main events of my freshman year. Or at least just the stuff that I can think of off the top of my head.

Today, I learned Jake likes me. I don't want him to like me, because I like that other kid. But I know that other kid won't ever happen with me. So why wait. I don't know. I just don't feel that way towards Jake I suppose. But that's kind of a lie. I do kind of like him. But I'm still trying to stay out of relationships because Jim really fucked me up. Oh well. Whatever happens...happens.

Sorry I haven't written more on here. I write a lot in a notebook, but I hardly get a chance to come on here anymore. Hope people are still reading my blogs. See ya next time everyone(: